Inside me

To all my friends
Who only see the outside
I'm like, 'lol' but
I'm crying inside

But I know to stay strong
Cuz if i'm not then i'll die
And i wouldn't leave behind
my baby, knowin' her, she would surely cry

And I, i'm feel bad
for the ones i left behind
but i know that they ain't worth it
that's why they ain't still in my life

Sometimes i take the fall
and other times i take the blame
But when the lines inside, they blur
Then nothing else is ever the same

This life is more than that,
It's not some sick and twisted game,
I know that deep inside there's meaning
I know that us kids, we ain't to blame

Even now, when the times are rough
And i hang my ugly head in shame
Theres people all round who care for me
Who all can share my pain

Oh dearly Departed,
Tell me, am i still retarded
When i spit these words back in your face
Am i still just a disgrace?

That i should be abandoned,
Only losers desert their friends
Because when our walls, they crumble down
Ain't they all that we got left?